Welp. I failed with my love. Her career comes first. I always knew that…but I thought I could do endear myself. Little did I know she would move 2 months sooner than expected in order to get away from me before she fell. That was a variable I did not prepare for. Its less scary for her to move away and avoid all feelings with someone than acknowledge them and see where it goes. I am broken. I thought this was fate and it turns out its just another disappointment to add to a lifetimes worth.
Part of me hopes I get hit by a car today, or I die in some freak accident. I wont do it myself, but if something happens to me, I wont complain.
I am absolutely in love with this girl and she seems to like me back! Never been happier in my life. As long as I have her everything else is irrelevant.
